It expresses very directly the struggle any parent has, to try to frame this flawed world to their children as an enticing place.
It became a very popular poem online in the wake of the Orlando shooting, and it is passed around again with fresh currency every time something awful happens. This recent Washington Post article is a good survey of the year it's had.
I was struck by it personally, like so many others; it dug into me. After admiring it for a long while, I started to wonder if it would work as a song (even though it's been many years since I've tried to compose or arrange music).
I noodled around a bit with possible melodies, thinking about different approaches like "what would Suzanne Vega do with this text?" Or Joe Jackson? Or Lin-Manuel Miranda? And on and on, trying out different approaches.
Eventually I reached a melody line I was happy with, and it solidified to the point where I couldn't hear any other competing melodies in my head. (I'm pretty curious to hear other musical settings of it now, since I expect they'll be completely different.)
Once I was happy with the shape of it and convinced myself it would be worth sharing, I wrote to Maggie Smith requesting permission to compose, publish, record, etc. She generously agreed, and so I've been working on polishing it into a final form.
Without further ado, here is a demo (unfinished) version of my "Good Bones" song that you can listen to (click to download the mp3 file)...
I hope to post a more polished recording in the near future (for sale on iTunes and Amazon), but for now I'm sharing this.
UPDATE: I originally posted a demo version of the song; now that it's released, here is a preview version of the real thing:
See the update post for links to Good Bones on major music services.
And here is a draft of sheet music for it, if you're curious to see: piano & voice, PDF.
I'm curious for feedback -- I haven't done this exact sort of thing before. I'm easy to reach on Twitter (@nowthis) and on email (same handle @ gmail.com).
This poem was read at a recent MVUC service. I liked it a lot.
by Denise Levertov
(via The Poetry Foundation)
Two girls discover
the secret of life
in a sudden line of
I who don't know the
the line. They
(through a third person)
they had found it
but not what it was
what line it was. No doubt
by now, more than a week
later, they have forgotten
the line, the name of
the poem. I love them
for finding what
I can't find,
and for loving me
for the line I wrote,
and for forgetting it
a thousand times, till death
finds them, they may
discover it again, in other
happenings. And for
wanting to know it,
assuming there is
such a secret, yes,
most of all.
Here is a recording of the author reading it.
Levertov died in 1997. Here's a page from the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign with extensive material on her career, including a page of several more of her poems.
A quickie retrospective post on 2015 so I don't have such a very empty year on the blog.
New things I tried, some of which succeeded:
- Started using my github account, including making the SankeyMATIC code officially open-source.
- Made a couple of pull requests (a.k.a. code-change suggestions) to other people's projects which were accepted.
- Gave a lightning talk on SankeyMATIC at a DataScience DC meetup. It went reasonably well.
- Took a short course in R Graphics. Went from knowing no R to passing the course handily.
- Participated in a GSA Hackathon for the first time. (Primary lesson learned: go in with a team if at all possible. It's not geared to the size of project I as an individual am likely to succeed at, and no one's looking to add team members on the day of the event.)
Some things I enjoyed:
- Another year of being @medley's primary conversational partner. (The things you all miss by not surveilling us, I swear.) The closest you can get is probably following both of us on Twitter.
- Another year of dad-hood, now with a second-grader who's playing good baseball, getting good at playing piano, and working his way ahead in math.
- They Might Be Giants' new album Glean
- Reading about the Hamilton show (now on Broadway), getting the Hamilton soundtrack, listening to it with genius.com open to the annotated lyrics
- Frank Turner's new album Positive Songs for Negative People
- Joe Jackson's new album Fast Forward (and seeing him on tour here).
- The CBS show Person of Interest (Thanks to Laurel Krahn for the recommendation).
- The podcast This Week in Blackness, which is a fairly eye-opening, brain-expanding listening experience for a plain white person such as myself.
A few other 2015 highlights that come to mind:
- Attending my grandmother's 100th birthday party.
Visiting St. Louis for the 30th Anniversary Concert of the Pikers (YouTube playlist) and getting to direct some of the old tunes.
My favorite part, which made it to YouTube: my old "Take Me Home" arrangement, performed for the first time in many years (with Matt Cooper on solo).
A few goals for 2016:
- More improvements to SankeyMATIC -- enough so that I'm happy to stop calling it (BETA).
- More attempts to contribute to other people's code.
- Write more. Write a lot more. (A perennial wish, admittedly.)
- Learn more data science skills.
- Keep improving my data visualization skills.
- Try to make something using Swift.
Not looking forward to in 2016:
- the ugly political campaigns already well underway
I'm sure I'm forgetting numerous things, but that's a fair amount of links to throw out in one post.
Happy New Year to you & yours.
This falls in the category of ‘tiny optimizations for modern life’, or ‘probably overthinking it’. And on a level this seems like an obvious thing to me, but I've never seen anyone else talk about this, so.. I will.
iOS and Android both offer a feature where you can make your own custom typing shortcuts which the device expands into longer phrases. (For specific instructions, see any of the many articles with specific steps out there.)
I've never used any of the example shortcuts I see given. Some are:
- btw = “by the way” … this is a pretty widely known abbreviation at this point, probably obvious to your correspondent, so why make this expand? Should we map ‘mr’ to ‘Mister’?
- drv = “Can't text, driving” … this one's a little funny—how long will it take to safely peck out “d-r-v” while you're going 50mph?
- omw = “On my way” … this is at least a useful message, but typing ‘o-m-w’ (top right of keyboard…bottom right…top left) doesn't strike me as a large improvement over typing the whole phrase.
My criteria for a truly time-saving shortcut are:
Be really easy to type.
- If I'm jumping all over the keyboard, I may as well be typing words.
Typing it should be as eyes-free an operation as possible. If you could type it without looking, that would be ideal. This is next to impossible on a touchscreen, but you can still make it easier on yourself by applying Fitts' Law:
“The time to acquire a target is a function of the distance to & size of the target”
The easiest letter to reach from the letter you just touchscreen-typed is? The same letter.
If you make your shortcut a series of the same letter repeated, you're making it about as easy for yourself as you can.
- Don't collide with other things I might type. If it's a series of characters I might actually use (like ‘ooo’), then it's not good to repurpose that string as a shortcut.
- Be easy to remember. As with any other keyboard shortcut, giving it some kind of connection to the original phrase will help make it something I will actually recall when I need it.
My most commonly-used shortcut is ‘hhh’, for “Heading home”. The only key I have to find is the H key, then poke it three times fast, then find ‘Send’. It's fast, the phone doesn't think I'm typing some other word, and it works great for me every day.
Here are some others which serve me well:
- ccc = Checking out — used when out shopping, to give some sense of how far along I am in the process
- ddd = Drop ok — school dropoff of child accomplished
If I used ‘on my way’, I'd probably use ‘www’ since I don't want to use ‘ooo’.
Along a similar line, this Lifehacker article recommends using “@@” as a shortcut for your own email address, with “@@@” for a second address and so on. (If I actually gave out my email address much from my phone, I would use this.)
One nice side-effect of using this style of shortcut: since they don't look like regular words, your phone has a good chance of auto-correcting to the right thing even if you don't get it exactly right. I typed too many ‘h’s once and my phone helpfully suggested “Heading home”, which was indeed what I meant.
What are your shortcut secrets?
One weblog I have specifically admired in the last year and want to follow in the footsteps of is Brent Simmons' inessential.com.
Specifically, his habit of writing out software-development diary entries discussing what decisions he is facing and either how he is solving it or what he is stuck on (and then his readers will often jump in with useful advice on Twitter & elsewhere.)
I have a lot of posts along that line I could make about a tool I made and released last year: SankeyMATIC, "a Sankey diagram builder for everyone".
It really deserved several blog posts here but never got any; I plan to remedy that and pick back up the thread of its development, as there are several improvements left to make before I can consider it properly done.
After around 6 months of piano lessons, the 1st grader had his first piano recital a couple of weeks ago.
It went well—he didn't have a lot of nervousness, he did remember his 3 very short memorized pieces, and he played them fine.
But I was struck by something as I watched the procession of students play.
I have been out of the watching-kids-perform world for so very long that I had totally forgotten that when kids make mistakes, their natural reaction is to back up and fix them.
(Several of the students, across a wide range of ages and skills, did this.)
I tried to think of when that was trained out of me, and have concluded that it was essentially when I began performing in ensembles--orchestras, choirs, etc.
Whether they said so out loud or not, it became clear from my various directors that in a performance, the group will not be stopping for one person's mistake. It is simply not practical to go back and fix much of anything.
(I have definitely had a few of the worst-case experiences where everything gets so cocked-up that there is no hope of proceeding together coherently, when you can feel the director's pain as they halt the entire song, quickly communicate a measure number or other fresh rendezvous point to the group, and try to resume with some dignity.)
It gets even more pronounced when you are having to coordinate with other performers who are not even looking at the same conductor as you—say, being in the pit orchestra for a musical. The action on the stage is going to happen whatever you do, so you do your best to stay in sync with the actors no matter what, caution to the wind and devil take the hindmost.
Watching piano students play by themselves, especially some just starting out, I have to shush that longstanding instinct. They are more concerned with correctness than with maintenance of tempo, and frankly this is fine and age-appropriate. Just a little unfamiliar.
(Another idea this experience reminded me of was the "Five Nines" concept as applied to musical performances, which I will have to elaborate on in some future post.)
Interrogator: "Is that a fair thing to say? That you've been under the influence of other people?"
Interrogator: "No, really? I find that most remarkable. I mean, aren't we all under the influence of others? It's part of being in the world. Somebody in the office is in a bad mood, pretty soon everybody's in a bad mood. We're all influenced by other people."—Babylon 5, Episode 4.18, "Intersections in Real Time"
To avoid one problem I have with writing—the strong feeling that I am repeating myself, leading to being super redundant, pointless and boring—I'll try a new tack.
For many of the various things I feel I've learned over the years, often I can point back to one or more specific things which led me there.
And rather than just expound on my various philosophies & heresies here, I think it will be more interesting to write about where some of these things came from (when I have particular things I can point back to).
This sort of rhymes with my wish to post about #ExcellentThings as well.
On some level, these kind of posts are just another series of 'Things What I Like'. But they are specifically things that I recall often, that I can point to as having had a lasting effect on my thinking.
Another part of wanting to post about these is to leave a trail for my son to find someday, helping to explain 'why was Dad like that, anyway?'.
#Influences: On Change
O'Neil used a lot of Eastern philosophy in his dialogue and plots, which was fairly interesting as a counterpoint to the Rand and Heinlein and so forth I was reading as a teen.
Of all the interesting thoughts and quotes that came out of it, the one that has stuck with me for decades is from the finale of a three-part crossover with Green Arrow and Batman, titled "Fables". (For an extensive exploration of that story, with scans of many panels, visit that link.)
Skipping the very very long setup, the line I come back to is spoken across a stormy ocean from a dying sensei to the main character Vic Sage (who is still immature, quick to anger and so forth).
The world was roaring around me...the wind shrieking, the water pounding and hissing.
I can't be sure I heard the old man's voice... I don't know if he really said it...—The Question, Annual #1, "Fables Part III" by O'Neil, Cowan & Magyar, 1988
"I was once like you.
If you live, you will change."
it's a versatile idea, approachable from several angles:
If you live, you will change. If you continue to live, you will continue to change.
The only way you will stop changing is to stop living. You are never a "finished" person until you have no more breaths.
Assuming that you will change, that more changes are coming: will you deliberately attempt to become better, or inattentively change to become more calcified, more rigid, more of the same?
I come back to this whenever I get pushed out of my comfort zone, or when I have clearly made a bad mistake.
It's an egotistical thing to think that my behavior is as good as it really ought to be in all ways, in all situations. I can improve, and frankly as an adult human I should be capable of improving. And one's friends and spouse can give you a nudge at times by helpfully pointing out when, e.g., you have been a real ass. And it's helpful to see that as guidance for your future changes.
A discussion of 'change' would not be complete without the other thing that reliably leaps to mind any time it comes up:
Benjamin: How would you feel about making a change?
Garth Algar: We fear change. <hits nearby machine with hammer repeatedly>—Wayne's World, 1992 (clip)
Inigo: I am waiting for you, Vizzini. You told me to go back to the beginning. So I have. This is where I am, and this is where I'll stay. I will not be moved.
Brute: But the Prince gave orders –
Inigo: So did Vizzini – when a job went wrong, you went back to the beginning. And this is where we got the job.
—The Princess Bride, 1987
Lessons I am trying to learn again, or for the first time:
It is better to publish things on your own site than on Twitter or Facebook.
You can control it, and it can't just go away without warning. Those sites are fine for mentioning posts and for getting feedback though.
Waiting for polished writing means waiting forever.
As evidenced by my very very sparse blog output over the last several years, I am a bit fussy about what I publish here—too fussy. These days, I think I will be happy enough to have some output of just-publishable quality instead of little-to-no output of quality I feel proud of.
It's okay to have an idea cross multiple posts.
I get stuck wanting to compile everything I have to say about a thing into one comprehensive master post, and that just leads to never ever finishing.
So I'll stop here. More to come.
One should have a post at least once a year, surely? Herewith some hasty disorganized thoughts at year-end, focusing on the positive:
- Having a pretty healthy 5-year-old kid is one of the big successes. He was able to shed the egg allergy this year, so a wider range of foods opened up for us; hoping that trend continues next year with the remaining allergies.
- Joined a choir, the Alexandria Choral Society. I did miss singing in groups. The December concert went nicely, I had a solo (We Three Kings, the Myrrh verse) and didn't mess that up, so thumbs up there.
- The markets had a good year, which meant the 401K had a good year. Like/Favorite/+1.
- Big work project launched, pretty successfully.
Out with 2013, bring on 2014. A few select goals I have in mind:
- Launch a project which can simultaneously serve as a useful tool for communicating difficult ideas and as a way to demonstrate publicly some of what I know about software, UI and complexity. More on this to come.
- Level up at work -- I'm moving back into a team lead role, which requires a different focus than I've had recently. So I will need to consciously make some changes to succeed there.
- Blog more than once, eh?
After many years of relative quiet in public (mostly existing as a twitter feed), I would like to plan for 2014's underlying nature to be this:
- Enough reading, enough preparation, enough mulling. Do.
- To borrow from Teddy Roosevelt, Do what you can, where you are, with what you have. Instead of thinking about what would be possible to do, under better conditions than these, possibly ideal conditions (what would even be ideal conditions, really, let's mull that over a bit) and with a better set of tools..how would one measure which tools are the best ones, hm, that's a chinstroker, and so on, and so on.
- Real artists ship. - Steve Jobs